I hope you don't get tired of posts without photos, 'cause I've got more from-the-heart musings for you. There will be no holding back. Are you ready? Okay....go!
I've never liked summer. The season is tolerable if there is air conditioning and lots of frozen treats, but by mid-July I'm always done. (Which is too bad, because that's really when summer actually gets going in Idahome.) I equate summer break to work, boredom, heat, boredom, work, work, work, boredom, heat, and probably some emotional somethin' or other mixed in there. And this summer has been extra worse because it has been 4 months long instead of 3, and because my last two summers were pretty darn fantastic. Bleh. Bleh bleh bleh. The two weeks until school starts again cannot come fast enough. I belong among the books and papers!
Alrighty, I'm gonna' get all this negativity out, and that will allow me to focus on what I really wanted to focus on today: the 8 month challenge. But first, a word about this summer. After applying for over 50 jobs in Blackfoot and the surrounding area, I have spent all summer mowing lawns and doing farm labor. Bleh. It has been so easy to fall into this rut of thought:
Silly me, I am a positive person! And so I've decided to attempt this 8 month challenge "to becoming a better you," and invite you to join me.
I have found that when I really want to change something, I've got to do more than just tell myself to think positive. I've got to do something big or meaningful, at least in my own eyes. Sometimes nobody else needs to know about it. Sometimes they do. Like this one. I got the idea from We & Serendipity, and I'll be modifying it a little bit. For the next eight months, I will share with you that month's challenge. I'll try and do it a few days before the first of the month, but no promises, okay?
Month 1: Don't Complain
Now you know why I had to get it all out. Complaining is really the butt of my problem, and is a super easy trap to fall into. But it doesn't make the situation any better. In fact, it usually makes it worse. Plus, I don't want to be ugly. So for the month of September, I'm going to try my darndest to not complain! I won't be anywhere near perfect, but the point is to consciously target the problem. Good luck!
I've never liked summer. The season is tolerable if there is air conditioning and lots of frozen treats, but by mid-July I'm always done. (Which is too bad, because that's really when summer actually gets going in Idahome.) I equate summer break to work, boredom, heat, boredom, work, work, work, boredom, heat, and probably some emotional somethin' or other mixed in there. And this summer has been extra worse because it has been 4 months long instead of 3, and because my last two summers were pretty darn fantastic. Bleh. Bleh bleh bleh. The two weeks until school starts again cannot come fast enough. I belong among the books and papers!
Alrighty, I'm gonna' get all this negativity out, and that will allow me to focus on what I really wanted to focus on today: the 8 month challenge. But first, a word about this summer. After applying for over 50 jobs in Blackfoot and the surrounding area, I have spent all summer mowing lawns and doing farm labor. Bleh. It has been so easy to fall into this rut of thought:
This sucks.
I'm sore.
These callouses will never go away.
My hands are filthy, but I promise I've scrubbed them a million times.
My shoulders are tight.
My fingernails are nasty.
I'm bored.
I have no days off.
I hate minimum wage.
I've never heard anything so foul come out of someone's mouth before.
I'm lonely. My friends are all engaged, and the one that isn't is all the way in Texas.
Why is it so cold, it's August for crying out loud!
Working in the rain is miserable.
I hate sharing a bathroom with a 7 year old.
I have a ponytail break line in my hair.
It's HOT.
Dumb bugs.
Flu - need I say more?
And I think that about sums it up. Of course, not all days are like this. This is really just an example of my worst days. But even shaky days have some of this in them. And it needs to stop. I've tried to tell myself to focus on the positive, but it ends up not being at all meaningful. I'm just telling myself to be happy about having any job because that's what I'm supposed to do. I then tell myself, "You just say that because that's what everyone expects you to say. You don't actually believe it, people just assume that Quinn is positive. Do you want to fall into that trap of being what everyone else wants you to be again?"Silly me, I am a positive person! And so I've decided to attempt this 8 month challenge "to becoming a better you," and invite you to join me.
I have found that when I really want to change something, I've got to do more than just tell myself to think positive. I've got to do something big or meaningful, at least in my own eyes. Sometimes nobody else needs to know about it. Sometimes they do. Like this one. I got the idea from We & Serendipity, and I'll be modifying it a little bit. For the next eight months, I will share with you that month's challenge. I'll try and do it a few days before the first of the month, but no promises, okay?
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Month 1: Don't Complain
Now you know why I had to get it all out. Complaining is really the butt of my problem, and is a super easy trap to fall into. But it doesn't make the situation any better. In fact, it usually makes it worse. Plus, I don't want to be ugly. So for the month of September, I'm going to try my darndest to not complain! I won't be anywhere near perfect, but the point is to consciously target the problem. Good luck!
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